Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Better & Worse

The past couple of months have been friendly to me.  I have been feeling better.  I am learning to cope with my grief.  I am learning to live with this whole in my heart and life.

But, the days are starting to get bad again.  Fears, stress, and sadness are creeping back in.  I am sure it has something to do with the dates that are coming up in the near future.

The next two months are going to be hard.  Very hard.

Mother's day, Bo's 6 month Angelversary, Bo's due date, and Father's day are all within a month of each other.

How do I cope with all of these days?  How am I supposed to act/react when I should be pregnant during the month of May and have a newborn come the month of June?

I guess I am going to do what I have been doing since my miscarriage.  Take it one day; one step at a time.  I am going to do my best to honor and remember my baby boy during this month of special dates, as I have since he went to Heaven.

So, please bear with me during these days.  They may get hard for me, so I will need your support, prayer & love most during these days!


  1. Kayla I am hoping you read this. Thank you for connecting me with Serenity's Mom -Jessie

  2. Kayla, I will be thinking of you and remembering you in my prayers. It is hard. I am glad you had some time that was kind to you before these dates come up. I have the same bad dates myself. Hugs!

    1. Thank you, Gale! Hugs to you, as well!