6 Months

Bo's 6 Month Angelversary was May 21!

All day long I was fine, until later that night, I was thinking about him, as I often do.

I just broke down in tears.  All I could think about was how I should be 38 weeks pregnant, ready to give birth to my beautiful baby boy! 

It is all I have been thinking about since his 6 month Angelversary!

I was able to order two beautiful pictures {one for my baby boy & one for my brother}, since I won a gift certificate from Catherine @ The Sacred Seashore.

Bo's beautiful sunset on the beach photo from The Sacred Seashore! <3

James' beautiful sunset beach photo from The Sacred Seashore!


I love these photos!  They are both so gorgeous!

My fiance picked Bo's photo out {and I think he made an awesome choice}!

Mommy & Daddy love & miss you, Bo!  Until we meet again, baby boy!

5 Months

April 21st was Bo's 5 Month Angelversary.  It was a peaceful day for me.  I honestly didn't even realize what day it was until later on in the night.

I spent all afternoon taking, editing, and e-mailing photos for some other wonderful BLMs.

The wind kept blowing, so the origami kept flying around all over the place.  All I kept thinking while the wind was blowing is that our Angels are watching over me as I take these photos.  {And, they are playing tricks on me!}

Bo, I think about you so often.  Everyday in fact.  You are my baby.  You are my son.  I will think of you everyday, until we meet again!  I love you, baby boy! <3

Better & Worse

The past couple of months have been friendly to me.  I have been feeling better.  I am learning to cope with my grief.  I am learning to live with this whole in my heart and life.

But, the days are starting to get bad again.  Fears, stress, and sadness are creeping back in.  I am sure it has something to do with the dates that are coming up in the near future.

The next two months are going to be hard.  Very hard.

Mother's day, Bo's 6 month Angelversary, Bo's due date, and Father's day are all within a month of each other.

How do I cope with all of these days?  How am I supposed to act/react when I should be pregnant during the month of May and have a newborn come the month of June?

I guess I am going to do what I have been doing since my miscarriage.  Take it one day; one step at a time.  I am going to do my best to honor and remember my baby boy during this month of special dates, as I have since he went to Heaven.

So, please bear with me during these days.  They may get hard for me, so I will need your support, prayer & love most during these days!